Random Late Night Typing

I don't feel bad, I just don't feel great. I'm not really confused, not really torn just having a hard time doing what I need to do...

The more honest I am with people the more I hurt them...This guy that I'm kind of dating I try to be as honest as possible with him. I try to practice honesty in what I say as well as my actions. I think I could use a lesson on the difference between being true in my actions and words and just acting and speaking out of emotion.

With no censoring I am possesive, irrational, suspicious and moody. On the other hand when I get my feelings in check and can make clear headed and rational decsions I am distant, unwilling to commit and a little mean. I probably could stand to use a little censoring.

Or maybe I should just decide already what the heck I really want...