Deuteronomy 30:11-20 (King James Version)

Deuteronomy 30:11-20 (King James Version)

11For this commandment which I command thee this day, it is not hidden from thee, neither is it far off.

12It is not in heaven, that thou shouldest say, Who shall go up for us to heaven, and bring it unto us, that we may hear it, and do it?

13Neither is it beyond the sea, that thou shouldest say, Who shall go over the sea for us, and bring it unto us, that we may hear it, and do it?

14But the word is very nigh unto thee, in thy mouth, and in thy heart, that thou mayest do it.

15See, I have set before thee this day life and good, and death and evil;

16In that I command thee this day to love the LORD thy God, to walk in his ways, and to keep his commandments and his statutes and his judgments, that thou mayest live and multiply: and the LORD thy God shall bless thee in the land whither thou goest to possess it.

17But if thine heart turn away, so that thou wilt not hear, but shalt be drawn away, and worship other gods, and serve them;

18I denounce unto you this day, that ye shall surely perish, and that ye shall not prolong your days upon the land, whither thou passest over Jordan to go to possess it.

19I call heaven and earth to record this day against you, that I have set before you life and death, blessing and cursing: therefore choose life, that both thou and thy seed may live:

20That thou mayest love the LORD thy God, and that thou mayest obey his voice, and that thou mayest cleave unto him: for he is thy life, and the length of thy days: that thou mayest dwell in the land which the LORD sware unto thy fathers, to Abraham, to Isaac, and to Jacob, to give them.

Random Thought

... your dreams may be beautiful but what if your reality is ugly?

My Life is Not My Own.

This song will really minister to you if you allow it to.


Part 2

Some Relationships are Just Hard To Explain

I know it is more so how I explain it and not so much that people interpret me the wrong way. However, it really annoys me how people get the wrong idea of the relationship that my mother and I have. Our relationship is awesome! I could not imagine having a better mother. No she isn't perfect and neither am I, but I don't know anyone that I would trade her with.

My mom supports me in everything that I do, and is my number one cheerleader. I can call her about anything, whenever I need something even if she doesn't have it she GETS IT! It's not like we don't hug, it's not like we don't ever talk.

People get the impression though that we don't have a good relationship because of a few things.

-they haven't seen us around each other
-they have seen me give her the side eye for saying something crazy (lol)
-I mention that I haven't really "lived" with her since I came to college
-I mention that I don't always talk to her on a regular basis and do not feel the need to


When I started college and had no intention of ever moving back into her apartment ever again. Not because she and I don't get along but because I do not want to be in her actual apartment. I hate everything about the actual physical apartment as well as where it's located, the neighbors and a host of other things. So I never stay with my mom if I can help it. I stay with friends and other fam during school breaks and people think that's strange.

As far as the talking thing we just aren't clingy people! lol Like seriously my mom and I do not feel the need to "check-in" with each other everyday. We are not the most socialable people either and picking up the phone is more of a task than something fun to do. My mom never nags me for not calling her she is happy when I do but she isn't sitting at home pouting because I didn't.

I guess our relationship is unique and I can't get mad at people for not understanding it but it really is annoying to me that I have to explain all of this before people get it.

Random Thought

-I don't feel like talking to this girl right now and I kinda wish she would stop tryna be my friend...

-I feel like my temper is going to blast off in ...3...2...1...

Falling in Love w/Jesus

[orig date:4/09]
Lately I've been getting a little caught up in the "rules" Jesus wants me to follow. That isn't so much a bad thing, because of course they're are commandments and things The Lord wants us to follow and it is important that we are obedient to the word of God. However, I just had a thought-

I can't forget to take time out to just stop what I'm doing and let The Lord love on me. If all I do is focus on getting through the tough stuff then I may not have all that it takes or the foundation to stand in The Lord. For me what has always brought me back to God is remembering how it FEELS to be loves by Him. I mean to literally be sitting in a room and knowing that The Lord is there and giving Himself to you. It's so AMAZING! Sometimes you just have to blank out and let Him hug you. It's a hug like no other can give, not a boyfriend/girlfriend, mother or father, it's a hug of unconditional love.

I guess you really know that His love is unconditional when you're going through something or you feel guilty because of sin and you take the time to allow Him to reach out and fill you with His love and it's so overwhelming that you could mess up like you did and still know that He wants you.

That's the awesome part...all that I've done...and He still WANTS me. wow!


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d1QuYNmfxUw
So if you catch me forgetting to spend time falling in love with Jesus please remind me!

A Confession

I don't trust that my friends can handle my Christianity so I already count them as lost...

I think the people in my life are so scared that my life changing is going to rock their worlds also, and I'm thinking to myself that they better get ready for something to shake. It is not coincidence the people who are allowed into your life and neither are your circumstances. I am thankful for the relationship that I have with Jesus and it is one of my prayers that others are blessed by it.